Dear Fosi,
I’m sitting here in a hotel room in Dallas, Texas, some
3,700 miles away, writing you a letter on this, our 24th wedding
anniversary. Granted, this is not how I
wished to spend this special occasion, separated by the great Pacific ocean and
a large chunk of the US continent, but work called and I hopped on a plane,
saddened by the fact that I’d have to spend Father’s Day, our anniversary and
my first off-island time away from our new baby. But I knew, as I’ve always known, that you
supported me in my endeavors and that baby, Sonny, the dogs, mom and dad, the
house and everything else would be well cared for in my absence. That’s one of the things that I’ve learned
about you after knowing you for over 30 years and being your wife for 24 of
those years.
I know you’re not much for fancy celebrations or grand
gestures and I don’t have a material gift to give you to commemorate our two
dozen years of being eternal companions.
So I thought I’d write because I find it easier to express myself
through the written word sometimes and you tell me I should write more, so here
I go.
I’ve learned a lot from you, about you, about me, about us,
and about a whole lot of other things through 24 years of marriage. Most of it is amazing, a lot of it is
challenging and some of it is downright heartbreaking, but all of it has taught
me tremendous things about what matters and has shaped the woman that I am
today.
So if you don’t mind, I’d like to share with you just a few
of the important things that I’ve learned about marriage during the course of our
last 8,760 days together.
1.
I’ve learned that two people who are very
different can be the best partners.
You’re quiet and low-key. I’m loud and opinionated.
You keep things inside and everything I’m thinking and feeling usually seeps
out all over the place. You do things without being asked and don’t expect
credit or accolades and I’m usually pointing out how wonderful it was that I
did the dishes. Your motto is, “let’s go for it.” and my motto is, “let’s think
about and plan for it, like from 10 different angles.” And yet, this
combination seems to work, not without it’s snags, but sometimes the synergy is
magical and that has allowed us to create a wonderful life together and for our
loved ones.
2.
I’ve learned that faith in God is essential
in a marriage.
I can’t count how many times I’ve
thought that it wouldn’t happen, that the odds were insurmountable, that it
just wasn’t meant to be. I’ve railed
against the universe, wept, mourned, complained, plotted, negotiated and gave
up trying and yet, through my faith, your faith, and collectively through our
faith in God, we’ve experienced miracles in our lives. Two children who came to us in the most
unexpected and miraculous of ways. A home that we were able to obtain for our
family, even when we appeared to be the most ineligible of buyers on
paper. The list of miracles and
blessings are too long to list but our faith in God has most often helped our
individual souls and carried us through our most difficult times.
3.
I’ve learned that you need to nurture a
marriage by honoring what is important to your spouse.
I’ll admit it, I can be a really
selfish person. Sometimes I just think about what I need and how I can get it.
I’m also strong-willed and pretty set in my ways, with a “my way or the
highway” attitude. Yeah, that doesn’t work very well in a partnership. I’ve
learned that the hard way. Different
perspectives, different love languages and different upbringings are often part
and parcel of a marriage, so making the effort to ensure that both voices are
valued, and both viewpoints are shared and honored is really important. I’ve been guilty over the years of pushing
my agenda and ignoring what meant a lot to you and I’m still learning to let go
of my need to control things and to find joy in the things that are important
to you, even if they’re out of my comfort zone.
I’m working on it, hon!
4.
I’ve learned that there are times in every
marriage when a “tune-up” is necessary.
Bills, babies, work, school, church and a
whole slew of other responsibilities can be really stressful on individuals and
marriages. It is so easy to get caught
up in the mundane details of everyday life, to put our time and energy on
making it through the day and not letting the balls drop out of the air. Things that were priorities for a couple
(like date night, romantic gestures and alone time) can fall by the
wayside. Sometimes this takes the form
of forgiveness for old hurts, addressing specific concerns or setting new goals
together. We all need ‘tune-ups’ to not
only maintain solid relationships but to adjust to inevitable changes in life,
as well as personal growth and individual needs over time. And tune-ups aren’t just for couples but for
individuals-we have to take care of and be kind to ourselves so we can be
fulfilled and bring our best selves to the marriage, family and life in
general.
5.
I’ve learned that living in the moment is
one of the keys to great happiness in marriage and in life.
Ok, this is something that I theoretically
know and am still trying to practice. This
is something that I struggle with maybe the most. My mind is always thinking ahead or obsessing
on something that already happened. And that causes great distress and, very
often, a sense of worry and fear. You,
my dear husband, are a man who knows how to live in the present, but more than
that, who is grateful in the present, laughs and loves with whole-heartedness
in the present and I have always watched in delicious awe. I feel like this is a secret that I’ve yet to
fully unravel. My greatest teachers have
been Sonny and Makana, Ma’a, Mele, Snoop and you. . .but I have a long way to
go. I say that it’s better late than
never!
The lessons are many, the memories and blessings could fill
pages and pages. But I’ll end here by saying, “thank you”, for all you’ve
blessed me and our family with. Even after 24 years, I think we are just at the
outset of our eternal journey. I look forward to learning and growing by your
side along that path.
Happy Anniversary, Fosi. I love you.
Eternally Yours,
Delia
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